Dear Mom, Did I Forget to Tell You That I Now Understand? A Poem For You On Mother’s Day

Dear Mom,

Did I forget to tell you that I now understand why going to the grocery store with all three of us must have been exhausting?  I used to ask if you could buy me fifty products, one brother would be grabbing at a Snickers, and my other brother would be blowing out his diaper.

It’s only now that I realized how it must have taken everything to hold it together during moments like those.

Did I forget to tell you that I now understand why you worried at night about things beyond your control involving us? I’m not there yet, but the teenage years must have been rough, and all three of us apologize for any night we didn’t call.

Did I forget to tell you that I now understand when one of us hurt – you hurt. And how when any of us were sick or in pain, you said you would trade places with us immediately. Growing up, I wondered if you really meant that, but now I know you did – without question.

Did I forget to tell you that I now understand why you always told people we were so busy? As a kid, I was relentless about always doing something. I was on the go and a firecracker of energy. Now I have a child who reminds me of that spark, but sometimes I want to just sit in silence. I now understand that sometimes you did too.

Did I forget to tell you that I understand the guilt that you took on for all of us and that is a lot of unnecessary weight to bear?

Did I forget to tell you that I now understand why for short increments of time you would leave us? You’d go shopping alone, or let us stay with grandma for the day. As a kid, I never understood why you felt the need to leave for a while. I now understand that you had hardly any alone time, and if you hadn’t left at all, we might have driven you to insanity.

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Did I forget to tell you that I now understand how much patience it takes to remain calm when your child doesn’t listen? I now understand why I needed a timeout once in a while, and why my brothers needed quite a few more 🙂

Did I forget to tell you that I now understand why sometimes you would take a deep breath when I asked what was for dinner – especially when it was only 1 in the afternoon?

Did I forget to tell you that I now understand why you stayed up so late? As a kid, I wondered the reasoning behind this since you were also the first one out of bed each morning.

Did I forget to tell you that I now understand why you always said you needed a vacation after we went on vacation? I now understand the preparation, packing, unknown variables in a new place, and the cleanup when you get back home.

I forgot to tell you that I now understand why my jacket on the couch was so annoying and why we needed to take off our shoes.

I forgot to tell you that I now understand why you always wanted us to close the door to the laundry room.

I forgot to tell you that I understand why you skipped some pages when reading us bedtimes stories

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I forgot to tell you that I now understand why you and dad would go away without us once in a great while.

I forgot to tell you that I now understand why sometimes you just wanted to stay in for the day.

I forgot to tell you that I now understand the love you feel for us all and how crazy, messy, beautiful it all is.

Did I forget to tell you that I now I understand how amazing you are and always have been?

Happy Mother’s Day. I now understand why this day is so special too. 

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Further Reading:

To the Mother Reading This: Your Work is Not Invisible

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